9 years, hard time, home and wedding

I am so happy to have been married to my super husband for nine years today. We are going out for thai tonight, kids going to auntie's, so we wil have a few hours to try and unwind. I love to reflect back on the years of our marriage, and the three years we were together before we got married, and just think about how far we have come as a couple, then as a family. We have grwon, our tastes have changed, we have moved around. What has not changed is how I feel about him. Well, actually, that is not true. I am crazier about him now than when we met. The attraction has grown, deepened, and we have come to know and understand each other better. The good thing is we have changed together, and somehow we share the same main interests. There really is no one(other than our turnips) whom I would rather spend time with. I really would prefer to just do things with the two of us than others overall, or as a family.

That said, he is having such a hard time right now. It is affecting his work, and he is upset by this. He knows the material, yet he is saying he just can't concentrate. I think it is a bit of mild situationally induced depression, and it is the worst time to be on course. The military, and all that it encompasses has always meant a lot to him, and as such I support it with all its faults 100%. I used to criticize it more, but now I realize that I can't do that and still be supportive of my husband. I have to stand behind all of it, even when it let me down all those years ago when he was overseas. Things have changed apparently in the past 6 years(naturally after he was back), so I have to stay positive. I keep telling myself I have to stay positive, focused on our household for Dave and the kids. But it is hard, and getting harder. We will know after today what is happening better.

The girls are cleaning their rooms right now, lil man is napping just now. I need to finish tidying up in the kitchen, I would rather just rest and online shop. I will motor with the kitchen then lounge. That sounds fair. We went looking for a dress last night, will look more on the weekend. The girls have dresses coming, need to try them on for size, need to get turkey's lil suit too. I need to investigate the shoe situation for the girls and buy Josh a pair. I am wearing my Italian silver leather heels, they are perfect and my favorites. I need to also dig into my wedding stuff as the ring cushion will be lent for the occasion. Despite the cloud over us I am so excited about the wedding.