Fun part of the weekend-lemongrass chicken, sushi, and vietnamese salad-check out chopstick boy!
I have been beside myself lately with too much on my plate-and not in my kitchen. My research group has given me anxiety, however, i feel I am actually on top of it now, I always have this 11th hour brilliance which serves me well, so I am no longer worried. We had a good night, Dave cuddling with the girls watching olympics, then Noni joined Josh and I with Haunted Mansion while I finished reading the mutterings of Cohen regarding the inadequacy of the null hypothesis.....We then watched The Darjeeling Limited, which I adore. I am transported by that one....I want badly to travel with them, and in a way, I guess I get to. We are tired, Dave will be flying off out east Sunday, and tomorrow we attend an open house at his CO's; I get to dress up, be the dazzling wife, beautiful, intelligent...hmmm, yes, fun. I am wondering about the cost of my courses now, two of them equals a good trip,so i am annoyed that this cost is even there now, but i am close enough to finishing that I know I would be a fool to abandon it, but still, it always should not be about me I guess. My parents were so self-sacrificing, that I too feel I must. As I discuss, no argue with Dave about what to do with our aging parents, as My colleague and I discuss a tentaive plan for Mom next time she presents in emerg, and as Dave's dad reahes his end-stage point in his disease process, we are faced so early with life decisions most our age don't have to. My colleague picked my brain the other day ago about her sister, age 60, who has fallen into a spiral of self-neglect following a long history with addiction, personality disorder, etc. Typically, she has burned all her bridges, and despite her sister's professional orientation, when it is your family, you are faced with certain feelings of obligation, helplessness, and sometimes guilt. She has helped her and no longer wants to, so she wanted to be sure that what she was doing was the right path. What I suggested was in alignment with her own line of thinking, and I know for her it was reassuring, yet I know, that no matter what decision is made, unlike our clients, when you are living with it personally, it is not the same. It never leaves you.
Update: Well, I finish this post almost a week later, but we had a great night at Dave's bosses' house, very fun, wish we could have stayed longer, but we were there on borrowed babysitting time, so we did not stay long. The food was nice, decent cheese spread, lovely company!
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