Halloween, thinking about life changes, cornbread and calzones

I really wanted to put down more thoughts in a journal-like fashion, however, I tend to do my thinking as I run or walk, and busy little people keep me from my computer. So, here I sit on my bed with Josh watching Max and Ruby and typing, as I do want to have a record of some of these days.

The halloween party invitations are printed, I will pick them up tommorrow, and get them out on Wednesday. It will be about 10 kids plus ours, bigger than In wanted but the girls wanted their closest friends so that is it. I have the menu chosen and the games, we are making halloween cookies this weekend. Davey is in Texas this weekend, so we will have a fun kids and Mom weekend. The good thing about him going is he will do a bunch of our Christmas shopping while there. I picked up Lauryn and Josh's tree ornaments too-holiday Barbie and thomas train sets. i already had the flower fairy for mimi. I put up Dave's spiderweb and we bought our pumpkins. he is the master carver in our house-he has made some amazing pumpkins over the years. I am surprised at how creative he is.

I was thinking about my husband today, just remembering when we first fell in love and that breathless kind of feeling, the excitement. What is funny is that even though I miss and feel nostalgic for those carefree times, he still makes me feel that way sometimes. I know it sounds goofy, but its true. Hey, I am surprised by it too, 12 years after we met, but we are just the right person for each other, our faults and all seem to make up for what the other lacks. I spend, he is careful with his money, is just an example! After having Josh I was at a weight high-40 lbs heavier than I am now, I embarked our entire family on a health food overhaul-high fibre everything, greens and more greens, tomatoes, garlic, salmon, green tea-anti-oxidant city. I also completely stopped drinking pop, and to this day rarely touch the stuff. When he was a year I started pilates, and that was what made the difference. Within a month I had shrunk by 2 sizes, and I was back running frequently. By the time I weaned Josh in the summer this year I then dropped further to my highschool weight and there I have stayed. I have kept us on our healthful eating, it can be challenging when the kids get picky, but Dave has even maintained his weight and he has a big appetite. It has paid off for us all. It does not mean we don't endulge our love of cheeses, wine and olives, we live by the moderation rule. I like food, love to cook and try new and exotic recipes and ingredients, being fit in between just lets me enjoy these things more I guess, but it was a long haul and hard work. When you are 25 you have youth and a high metabolism on your side. Now that I am heading for 35, my metabolism requires input from me more than it did. I remember thinking I couldn't gain weight, foolish 20 something thought I guess, when I had kids that certainly became more of an issue. It's funny how naive we can be at times.

So basically, after all that rambling about my fitness then lack thereof, then coming back to fitness, I had to wonder what was similar in my life now compared to last time I was at this weight. Not that I haven't had spells of hitting the gym for a couple of months steady here and ther over the years, just that I have really changed my whole lifetsyle in the last 10 months. I am not newly in love, but I am newly experiencing life I guess being home longer with my kids and really embracing this time. I am heading back to work shortly, and am back at school, choosing to change my career path-not unlike the beginning of my career years ago. I do wonder if my life changes spurred my health choices or if my health choices spurred life changes. Maybe I won't know that answer, but either way I am happy with the end product-and Dave and I are enjoying each other more now than when we met.

I baked Cheddar and sage cornbread, spinach calzones and pizza today. The cornbread was super and we are going to eat the pizza-right now!